Leo and I have a long discussion on religion and I bring up that I was interested in finding something more about what I guessed he was associated with. I have always deduced that he was a member of a Fraternal Order. He stated that he had a feeling that I needed said information and brought with him an informational pamphlet.
I spend the next few weeks reading and researching the Order and find nothing malicious or negative about them. They are trying to improve humanity one individual at a time by passing on ancient esoteric knowledge and promoting peace from a metaphysical perspective.
21 March 2008
20 March 2008
The Beginning
Let me first give a background to help put these recent events into perspective. I was born in Vancouver BC in 1975 and lived there for five years. Near the end of this time my mother (years later diagnosed bi-polar) was neurotically visiting a born again "cult"-like christian group which bascially split up my father's and her marriage. We quickly moved to Albuquerque where I was baptized catholic, something my father would not allow my mother to do in Canada. For much of my life I felt contempt for Christianity and blamed it for breaking up my life. I always considered myself an eclectic Pagan; I would take traditions from all religions if I felt they were right for me.
My wife, who was brought up in Christian Methodist and Presbyterian churches, is very open minded and supportive of my religious ambiguity as long as I support her in her worship. It is very important to her that our son in brought up with a tradition. Since I have none, I go to church with them and learn their ways. It is through her that I have learned that Christianity does not have to be mandated by a higher-than-thou man sitting on a pious throne dictation what he thinks God wants. That was all I knew growing up and all I rebelled against. I appreciate and even respect her religion. I find it malleable and open to interpretation. We are now going to an Episcopal church and it is as familiar to me as Catholic was with a lot of the same flexibility I found in Presbyterianism.
In 1998 I got my wisdom teeth removed. This surgery caused three months of an inability to open my mouth more than a few millimeters. I also had a fine motor disconnect that caused me unable to play guitar or play video games for more than six months. This eventually went away, but shortly after the surgery I started getting migraine type headaches. These headaches would last, at the most, three days and at times would cause me extreme light sensitivity and pain. Over the years the frequency increased until the headache would refuse to go away.
I went through the gambit of treatments and tests from Neurologists, Allergists, Physical Therapists, DOM’s, Cranial Sacral Therapists and TMJ Specialists. Since December 2004 the headache had not gone away once. I had some headway with Procaine injections, but nothing seemed to work. My wife was at wits end not wanting her husband to have chronic pain. My two-year old son had never known his father with out this headache. I was spending at least one day at home sick every other week. I was near going on disability and had given in to embracing the pain as my best friend just to keep it from completely taking me over.
The infrastructure project I was working on added stress and sleeplessness to the mix ending in an ER visit by extreme high blood pressure and fears from the doctors of a stroke. When I returned to work, my boss was trying to fire me because I was involved with political BS that I did not even initiate. Something had to change.
This blog is discussing the results of trying to change the negative things in my life in order to move on and deal with the stresses and pains of chronic pain and the amazing after effects of meditations and conversations with The Universe brought about by synchronicities and a search for more meaning in my life.
My wife, who was brought up in Christian Methodist and Presbyterian churches, is very open minded and supportive of my religious ambiguity as long as I support her in her worship. It is very important to her that our son in brought up with a tradition. Since I have none, I go to church with them and learn their ways. It is through her that I have learned that Christianity does not have to be mandated by a higher-than-thou man sitting on a pious throne dictation what he thinks God wants. That was all I knew growing up and all I rebelled against. I appreciate and even respect her religion. I find it malleable and open to interpretation. We are now going to an Episcopal church and it is as familiar to me as Catholic was with a lot of the same flexibility I found in Presbyterianism.
In 1998 I got my wisdom teeth removed. This surgery caused three months of an inability to open my mouth more than a few millimeters. I also had a fine motor disconnect that caused me unable to play guitar or play video games for more than six months. This eventually went away, but shortly after the surgery I started getting migraine type headaches. These headaches would last, at the most, three days and at times would cause me extreme light sensitivity and pain. Over the years the frequency increased until the headache would refuse to go away.
I went through the gambit of treatments and tests from Neurologists, Allergists, Physical Therapists, DOM’s, Cranial Sacral Therapists and TMJ Specialists. Since December 2004 the headache had not gone away once. I had some headway with Procaine injections, but nothing seemed to work. My wife was at wits end not wanting her husband to have chronic pain. My two-year old son had never known his father with out this headache. I was spending at least one day at home sick every other week. I was near going on disability and had given in to embracing the pain as my best friend just to keep it from completely taking me over.
The infrastructure project I was working on added stress and sleeplessness to the mix ending in an ER visit by extreme high blood pressure and fears from the doctors of a stroke. When I returned to work, my boss was trying to fire me because I was involved with political BS that I did not even initiate. Something had to change.
This blog is discussing the results of trying to change the negative things in my life in order to move on and deal with the stresses and pains of chronic pain and the amazing after effects of meditations and conversations with The Universe brought about by synchronicities and a search for more meaning in my life.
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