12/27/2008 - Christmas Party - G17

Gong #17

I had a guest at my Christmas party bring me a gift...an Anch necklace from Egypt that happened to be in the queens chamber of the great pyramid. Guess who brought it?

LEO!

GONG!!

12/23/2008 - Leo and the Twenty

I had lunch with Leo today. We discussed his month long trip to Egypt. He had an amazing trip, as one would expect. After catching up, he went to the restroom while I paid the bill. I set a $20 on the table and waited for him. While staring at the dollar I realized that it had an interesting serial number: 02354777C. What was interesting is that it was practically the Fibonacci sequence: 0112358 with 777, a very important esoteric and mystical number. I decided to switch out the twenty with another.

Later that day I checked out the significance of the numbers and came up with the following using a Gematria web site:

235 = To lay upon the neck or to load
4 = A father elated or proud
777 = Man of Prayer

Strung together it might say:

A man of prayer or Father is elated or proud to load or lay upon the neck...?

12/07/2008 - Dots in the Sky

My wife, son and I came out of church this afternoon and I looked up at the sky. I saw three perfectly round and evenly spaced clouds as if a typewriter had imprinted three successive periods on the sky. I thought it was interesting and researched the meaning of three dots. I came up with a few hits:

Materia Prima - Three dots in a rectangle - Not sure what Materia Prima means, primordial ooze?

Salt/Sagittarius - Three tiny circles almost shish kabob'ed

Sand - Two rows of three dots

Spirit or Wine - Three dots with the outer two connected by a V

Steel - Three dots with the outer two connected by a U and a line connecting the center dot to the U (Maybe this meant that the Steelers were about to win!)

Interesting, but of unknown relevance at this time.

12/06/2008 - Poker Phone

My wife and I were watching a new George Clooney movie Michael Clayton this evening. In the scene we were viewing, Michael was sitting at a organized crime poker room playing Texas Hold'em. The scene cuts to a view of a bin with his personal effects including his cell phone. At the exact moment his cell phone rings, with a similar sound and exact duration of ring, our house phone rings. On the phone was a good friend of mine who was telling me about a mutual friend she just got off the phone with. It turns out that he was coming back from a week long Texas Hold'em poker tournament where he won first place.

Interesting coincidence don't you think?

11/26/2008 - Professional Meaning

I skipped over the meaning of Cauda Draconis from a professional perspective as I figured the sign may have been associated with Spirituality only. This is what it says:

"If you obtain Cauda Draconis as an answer to a professional question: if I was in your shoes, I would not take another step without getting a lot more guarantees. You might be exposed to a swindle, or fall into a trap. The morality of your collaborators/colleagues/employer should be thoroughly scrutinized, as Cauda Draconis alerts you to a possibility of manipulation or vicious rumors. Full light must be made: do not be afraid to turn the stone over, even if underneath you find it crawling with creepies: truth might wound, but lies can kill."

I only mention this because today a close co-worker and my good friend along with my boss (also a good friend) were put on administrative leave Monday due to an HR scandal that I know my boss has nothing to do with.

I found an email that would complicate the issue and could have easily buried it, but since I am an honest man and I have read the above paragraph, I will need to be truthful. I hope that the email at least returns my boss, but I have a feeling it will not save my co-worker friend.

Regardless of what happens, I truly believe that this HR situation is the warning from Cauda Draconis.

11/18/2008 - Cauda Draconis - G16

Gong #16

I have been researching the sparrow sigil and found a few similar symbols:










I noticed that the symbol for borax had a similar shape. If I took the symbol and mirrored it off the left side it would basically produce it, but I felt in my heart that there was a better match out there.

It was shortly after that realization that I found it!


















Cauda Draconis literrally means Tail of the Dragon in Latin.

A geomancy site stated the following about Cauda Draconis:

"Cauda Draconis, the Moon's South Node or Dragon's Tail, is associated with the negative sides of Saturn and Scorpio. It can show misfortune and the need to pay for past debts. Cauda Draconis favors the termination of something. When Cauda falls in the first house, many geomancers destroy the figure.

If you obtain Cauda Draconis as an answer to a spiritual question: stop and think. You might be influenced and pushed in a dangerous, harmful direction, harmful and destructive for you as well as for others. Analyze your deeper motives and try to understand your real intentions when it comes to spirituality, or should we say magic? Are you sure your quest is not motivated by the desire to dominate other human beings without paying the price of true initiation which always involve reaching down to the depths of yourself? But maybe you are not the problem: take a critical look at the person you have chosen as your spiritual guide and examine his motivations. Do not lose hope however, and remember the one who said: seek, and you will find... Trust your intuition, it can change everything."

I also beleive that Cauda Draconis represents, in your western astrological chart, one of the lunar nodes. A node is moment when the moon crosses the ecliptic of the sun in the same way it did when you were born. The beginning node being the Caput Draconis (Head of the Dragon.)

I am not sure what this all means, but feel that Cauda Draconis does have a significance.

BTW, on the way to work this morning I passed a Mercedes whos vanity plate read THINKPOS!

11/09/2008 - Sigils

I attended an Autumn Social at Leo's house today with my family. It was a nice potluck with great people. We did a harvest/seed exercise that was interesting. Basically you talked with the group about what was your Harvest from the previous year and what seed you would plant for the upcoming. I harvested knowledge and seeded love.

I drew out the symbol to Leo and he said his first thought was that it looked like a Sigil. This started a research into Sigils. I will report what I find, if anything.

11/08/2008 - Signs in the Sky

I was sitting at a light this afternoon and looked up to see literally thousands of sparrows lined up continuously on a set of power lines over the intersection. I notices that they formed a shape similar to this:

















I do not yet know what it means, if anything, but I know I had never seen an uninterrupted line of all sparrows in that number in my life.

10/27/2008 - Like Father Like Son

I went to lunch with Leo today. We discussed personal lives, politics and the Mayan calendar. I was fascinated to find that the calendar's proposed end of the world (December 20th, 2012) is actually the end of a 2600 year cycle, called a b'ak'tun. This timing seems to align with the current transition into the age of Aquarius and historically with the beginning of Leo age approx 13,000 years ago.

Key numbers in this calendar are 4, 13 and 20 which represent different cogs which rotate in different ways to display the dates of the calendar.

Leo's point about the alignment with these and other calendars is that it seems that the world in general has had more change in it over the past eight years then it has in a long time. We discussed the possibility that these changes may continue until 2012 when a global consciousness shift occurs signaling the arrival of the Aquarian age.

I also asked him about the significance to him of the KJ suited from the other night. He, before even hearing the context of the story, said something like this of the two Major Arcana cards: "I would say the King represents the father and Jack the son...a representation of the coming together of two worlds, the spirit and the physical and the knowledge transfer between them."

Comparing the numbers in the Mayan calendar and the poker night I find the following:

-A pair of four's won the hand (4 being important in the Mayan Calendar)
-K is card # 13 in the suit (13 being important as well)
-J is card # 11 in the suit (No significance that I can think of with 11 and the calendar)
-Maybe there were four King's, four Jack's, two four's and four players who did not fold (4+4+4+4+4 = 20, the third number...hhhhmmmm)

Was my presence the reason for this synchronicity? Was this just another way for the universe to let me know that I am still walking the path in the correct way and it is leading me to enlightenment (even at a poker game?)

10/24/2008 - Poker Night

I played Texas Hold'em poker Friday night with some friends. This was a relatively mundane evening with no exceptional happenings until I walked away from a hand I had just folded. When I returned to the hand everyone was standing up talking about it. It turns out four of the seven players each were dealt King-Jack of the same suit. The players were all amazed at about how unusual this was and how they had never, in a combined 50+ years of playing poker, seen such an improbable hand. All of the KJs hands were beat by a pair of fours. I was not sure what this all meant, and since I was not in on the round I figured it did not necessarily pertain to me anyway.

BTW: the number of possible hands in a seven player game is ≈1.2674 x 10^17 (more than 126 quadrillion) and I believe the probability of this hand is approx 1 in 832 Billion.

9/21/2008 - Stonehenge

I had the opportunity to do a public seminar for the Order today on Stonehenge. It was a wonderful exercise and allowed me to learn so much about it.

My wife and I were privileged to visit Stonehenge back in 2002, so it has always had a place in my heart. It is quite amazing that something built more than 5000 years ago still stands today.

Here are some of the great things I learned about Stonehenge:

• The Aubrey circle, built of 56 holes in a circle outside the most notable Sarsen Circle, is actually a calculator when used correctly will determine the exact date of solar and lunar eclipses with 99.8% accuracy.
• Bonnie Gaunt, using the Gematria value of "Lord Jesus Christ" (3168), believes that Stonehenge is a message from God verifying his existence. She says this because she calculates four times the diameter of the earth at 3168 mi, the combined distance from each planet to the sun is 31,680 mi. and the circumference of the Sarsen Circle to be 316.8 ft.
• I do not necessarily agree with this because: the average earth diameter is 7918 X 4 = 31, 672 mi, the Sarsen Radius is 52.2 ft = 327.8 ft circumference and I do not see why God would use British measurement to communicate to humanity.
• Bonnie also thinks that the station rectangle, a rectangle made by four stones in the Aubrey circle which align with the rising and setting of the sun and mood at different times throughout the year, when bisected points at 117 degrees off of north to the Giza Pyramid at Khufu.
• I give her that as the surveyed location of of the stones which are gone or have been moved over time vary (117, 117.1, 117.2, 117.38 and 117.415 degrees) and the actual angle to Khufu is 118.130 to 118.22 degrees depending on who is measuring. I can see the probablility of the Pyramid alignment. BTW, the distance is 2234.309 mi.
• This got me to thinking about what bisecting the rectangle the other way would reveal. Using gross estimation I discovered that the line travels south into Africa and could align with two villages in the middle of the Algeria in the Sahara (El Golgea or Laghouat [near Messad]). If you bisect each leg of a giant triangle as in the below image, the nexus is somewhere in the Mediterranean near Sardinia (ancient Tyrrhenia) which was at one point in history a potential location of Atlantis.
• I found it even more coincidental when I was referred to a book about Cleopatra Selene (meaning moon) II or VIII, the daughter of Cleopatra VII and Mark Antony, potentially spending most of her life in the British isles and may have influenced Stonehenge. I learned that her husband, with whom she is buried back in Egypt, was Jubba II, King of the Moorish empire at the time which encompassed Algeria and most of the Sahara.

I really enjoyed researching and giving the presentation.

9/04/2008 - 46664 - G15

Gong #15

Synchronicity has been slow for a little while. The universe is probably letting us recover from the loss of Shuga. :(

Yesterday I got a check from my previous employer for 401k rollover. It amounted to $4,666.40. I thought it was a mystical sounding number, but did not think twice about it.

When I turned on my car this morning and guess what the mileage was: 46,664. I thought this was cool, but what did it mean.

When I got in my car at the end of the work day, I looked at my mileage and found that I had misread it. It was actually short of the 46664 by a few miles. I found that on my way home from work it would hit the 46664 mark and wanted to take a picture for posterity.

As I like driving fast, I found myself racing a white Celica near an on ramp to north bound I-25. I decided at the last minute to not enter the freeway and follow the car I was racing and instead went past the freeway and watched the odometer. When I hit the 46664 mileage I turned off to a side road and saw in front of me a police car, fire truck and ambulance responding to an emergency. I took the picture and drove back to enter the free way a few miles north of where I left the Celica on I-25.



When I entered the freeway, I noticed a wreck directly in front of me and guess which car it was...the white Celica. This whole coincidence seemed to save me from a potentially bad accident. I wonder what would have happened if I had not heeded the warning. I will never know for sure, but it sounds probable and the whole thing is definitely amazing!

8/29/2008 - Sea Legs

My son and I were driving home this afternoon and were stuck in traffic. It was a typical New Mexico sunny day rain storm. The late afternoon sun was shining down reflecting through each and every raindrop. A great song came on and all of a sudden I realized that everything, I mean absolutely everything, seemed to be dancing along to the song: the leaves on the trees and bushes, the windshield wipers on all the cars around me, passing cars, the words coming from my son, the motion of the traffic. This continued all the way home while I looped the song on my iPod.

Here are the lyrics to the song "Sea Legs" by The Shins:

Of all the churning random hearts
Under the sun
Eventually fading into night,
These two are opening now
As we lie, I touch you
Under fuller light.

Girl, if you're a seascape
I'm a listing boat, for the thing carries every hope.
I invest in a single light.
The choice is yours to be loved
Come away from an emptier boat.

'Cause when the dead moon
Rises again
We've no time to start a protocol
To have us in.
And when the dog slides
Underneath a train,
There's no cry, no use to searching for
What mutts remain.

Throw all consequence aside
The chill aspire, people set alight.

Of all the intersecting lines in the sand
I routed a labyrinth to your lap.
I never used a map sliding off the land
On an incidental tide,
And along the way you know, they try
They try.

And we got sea legs
And we're off tonight
Can I've that to which they've no right?
You belong to a simpler time
I'm a victim to the impact of these words,
And this rhyme.

'Cause when that dead moon
Rises again
We've no time to start a protocol
To have us in.
And when the dog slides,
Open the door, and where'd she go?
There's no time, no use to searching for
The mutts remains.
Throw consequence aside and the chill aspire, people set alight.

8/27/2008 - Rebirth in the Clouds

Today my wife, son and I were walking around our neighborhood during sunset and we noticed a huge and beautiful cloud lit up in an interesting way. It resembled a phoenix with a long billowy tail, large curly wings and almost shimmering neck and head.

This image got me to thinking that maybe this represented Shuga reborn in the sky as a beautiful phoenix. I was following this train of thought and realized that the theme of images in the clouds could be followed throughout our journey with death. The foreshadowing of the dragon and eagle battle the other night followed by Shuga running around the sky the day she passed and now a big phoenix in the clouds. All the images remind me of Samson Agonistes by Milton. Milton describes Samson's internal turmoil after being imprisoned by the Philistines and the power of his hair cut off and his eye removed and the internal and external blindness he encounters. He discusses dragons, eagles and a rebirth that of a phoenix:

"And with blindness internal struck.
Semichor. But he though blind of sight,
Despis'd and thought extinguish't quite,
With inward eyes illuminated
His fierie vertue rouz'd
From under ashes into sudden flame,
And as an ev'ning Dragon came,
Assailant on the perched roosts,
And nests in order rang'd
Of tame villatic Fowl; but as an Eagle
His cloudless thunder bolted on thir heads.
So vertue giv'n for lost,
Deprest, and overthrown, as seem'd,
Like that self-begott'n bird
In the Arabian woods embost
That no second knows nor third,
And lay e're while a Holocaust,
From out her ashie womb now teem'd
Revives, reflourishes, then vigorous most
When most unactive deem'd,
And though her body die, her fame survives,
A secular bird ages of lives."

Samson Agonistes 1686-1708 by John Milton

8/24/2008 - Shuga RIP

I have been trying to think of the best way to post about this, but I guess I just need to do it.

Shuga had a slipped disk that was putting pressure on her spine. The vet told us that the good news about Shuga was that she was still feeling her hind legs. The best way to try and fix a slipped disk was to give her large amounts of steroid injections in hopes of decreasing the swelling and have it pop back into place. We hoped that by morning she would improve by morning.

In the morning we got a call from the vet saying that she had lost feeling in her hind legs which means that we were looking at surgery, which was unlikely to fix the problem or permanent paralysis. After much trepidation and crying we decided that she would be put to sleep. My wife took it the hardest as she had never been in the room during a euthanization. Shuga went peacefully and in the company of people who loved her. We buried her in Placitas at her parents property that afternoon.

Our three year old took it really well until he finally realized that she was not coming back. We told him that she is here with us in our hearts and we ca talk to her any time we want. He seemed content with this, although sad

The cool thing was that night at sunset. I went out on her parents' patio to take in the view and saw a dachshund shaped cloud almost running out of the sunset with ears flapping and a big smile on her face. I brought out my wife and she instantly started to cry. I know she is much better off now!

This song makes me think about Shuga:

"Oh Kay" by Pop Unknown

Hush now
Don't you cry
I'll be right here with you all the way
I'll catch up with you up there
Someday
I beg for you now
As you fall into nothing
All the way, all the way
Hold your head high
As you fall into nothing
Hold my hand as you slip away

I beg for you now
As you fall into nothing
Always

And i'm better
Better
Now that you've gone home
And i'm better
Better
Now that you've gone home

8/23/2008 - Dog Emergency

While my wife and I were out in the garage this evening, we heard horrible shrieks coming from the other room. We ran into the hall to find our Dachshund, Shuga, whimpering and taking deep breaths. After only a few minutes she started dragging one foot behind her. By the time I got her to the pet hospital both legs were being dragged. The vet told us, as most people know, that this breed tends to have spinal problems. They were going to attempt intense steroid therapy in hopes of relieving the swelling which was putting pressure on the spine. The good news was that there was still feeling in her toes. Once feeling is absent the prognosis goes south quickly.

8/20/2008 - Perception

I was reading an article on perception. The article stated that since the perception of our environment is built through the collection of information by our various sensory organs translated by our brains, we can never really know for sure that the object we are seeing, hearing, feeling, smelling and/or tasting actually exists. Basically, we can only know that our brain has collected the information and interpreted it based on previous experience and deduction and presented to us what it feels the object is. The article was careful to state that this does not change the fact the the object is in fact real and is (most likely to be) what we perceive it to be.

This hit me in a familiar way. Many year ago I was contemplating this subject and wrote the following in my Book of Shadows:

"In previous times of deep thought I imagined that the world was a conspiracy to conceal the acts of an intellectual genius. That all the people in this world were setting up all the scenes that I viewed. Essentially it was all an act. Everyone was just playing their part in a play to make these environments seem real.

Upon further contemplation I determined that I was the one who was doing this. Wherever I went I, without knowing it, set up the environment using what I have "learned" was reality. A room has four walls, a ceiling, a floor, furniture, etc. I am conspiring with myself to keep the world real. I must relearn my perception devices and 'see through reality.'"

8/17/2008 - One Bike at a Time

I went to a friends house tonight. He has recently started his own business as a mobile bike mechanic. He has a great idea and has everything he needs to fix a bike on the back end of his truck and just drives around town.

He was showing me his insignia, a dragon in the shape of a car attaching a biker who has a bike wheel as a shield and his throne as a sword. He picked up a shirt and showed it to me. Below the insignia it stated "Solving the world's problems...one bike at a time."

I was amazed and told him the whole story about Leo's ideas of global secular education. He, being a teacher, was intrigued and stated "this is the Age of Aquarius after all!"

8/16/2008 - Dragon vs. Eagle

I was sitting outside my house and saw a cool set of clouds. One looked like a black dragon (not lit up by the sun at all) and the other like an white eagle (nicely illuminated by the sun), talons out, falling at full speed to attack. I did not think of taking the picture until after it started breaking up, but you should be able to get the general idea. Not sure what it might mean, if anything, but it is interesting none the less.

8/15/2008 - Olympic Love

Guo Chunning, the creator of the Dancing Beijing symbol said "We...should love our earth...otherwise it will be destroyed one day so we should try our best to promote the concept of love by all kinds of means"

Then he said when signing a painting to a friend "the sun and the moon will always align again even if the world must start over"

I thought these were nice things to say and I felt they were important to share.

8/09/2008 - Rosy Cross

I have been looking online and at different stores around town for what I would consider the perfect addition to my collection of spiritual articles. My search has lasted three weeks and I still had not found exactly what I needed. I was looking for a stand-up cross (symbolizing the physical body or humanity) with a rose or flower in the middle (symbolizing enlightenment or connection to the ethereal/universe/God). I just had not found the cross that I felt represented me and I had finally decided that I would stop looking so hard and let it just come to me.

Today my wife son and I were driving in Placitas and saw a few signs for a village wide flea market. I had a feeling, somewhere in my heart, that I would find it there, and had to stop see if it was true.

I pulled up next to a table and spied what I thought was a cross sitting there. I got out of the car and walked up to a stand up cross with a red five-petal flower in the middle colored in southwestern styles. It seemed to be made in a Mexican tradition popular in New Mexico. As everyone was packing up when I approached, the man at the table told me that he would give me a bargain. It was listed at $22 and I only had $11 in my pocket. "Give me $10." he offered.

I am now the proud owner of the perfect missing Rosy Cross!

8/07/2008 - Solving the World's Problems

I walked into a cube of a friend today who knows nothing of the discussions I had with Leo mentioned in the 7/31 post. When he saw me he said "Jayson, how is solving the worlds problems going?"

I could not help but smile.

Tomorrow is 8/8/8...how fun. I cannot help but wonder what the Universe has in store for me on that seemingly auspicious day.

On a different note, my car would not start this morning. I spent thirty minutes cleaning the leads and poles on the battery to no avail. I finally had to jump my car with my wife's vehicle. It turned over fine and after running for a few minutes it came back to life when I shut it off and back on. I decided to drive into work this morning instead of taking the bus.

When I came out after work, my battery was dead. I got a jump from my friend and drove home planning to pull out my battery and go buy another.

I pulled up to a light and saw a work truck with a battery in the bed. The battery had a big "65" on the label. I thought that was weird so I tried to figure out if there was anything else going on in the scene. I looked at the license plate, which was JAK 010. I refer to my best friend as Jayko often and tried to figure out the message (if any). I called him and left a voicemail just in case.

I came home, pulled out the battery, placed it in the back of my wife's car and went to the battery shop. Once I purchased a new battery and went to collect my old one from my wife's trunk and found it had fallen on its side and spilled battery acid all over the carpet. Thankfully the removable carpet soaked it all up and it did not go through to the upholstered carpet underneath.

I would not consider this a 'bad' day, just interesting. I did have fun working on the car and it seems to be working fine now :)

8/06/2008 - Sneaking Suspicion

It has been slow since the last entry. I have not detected much synchronicity, but otherwise have had a great week.

Yesterday I had a conversation with a coworker about joining a shotgun charity golf tournament. I told him that I was good and shot an 86 the other day. He was impressed until I told him it was on the front 9!

He continued to explain to me that most courses have a 72 par. I had never put that together only ever playing 18 holes once.

Today I was driving home from work and heard an advertisement on the radio for a golf course up north. The pitch was something like "Come play golf where our average temperature is the same as our par...72."

I thought to myself, "I just find out something yesterday that I never knew before and I hear it again only 24 hours later...what was that about?" (Synchronicity #1)

I continued on my way stopping to get gas. While in the convenience store I saw an old friend I have not seen in over a year. We catch up and part ways. (Synchronicity #2)

I was driving northbound, speedily as usual, when I noticed a police car coming south down the street. I slowed down significantly and my heart raced slightly, but the car did not turn around. I responded with speeding back up to the usual 15 to 20 miles over the limit and then noticed to my surprise that another police car as sitting on the opposite side of the street in what looked like a speed trap. Again I slowed down quickly. It really got my heart pumping when I saw his lights flash on even before I passed him. I saw him pull out, lights blaring, in my rearview mirror, but he continued down the road traveling south. I found this very curious and thought to myself that this was no coincidence. Remembering the rule of three's I slowed down to the limit for the rest of my trip and kept my eyes peeled. (Synchronicity #3)

When I turned up a road near my house that I usually blast through because of its roller coaster like berms, I just "knew" that there was a similar speed trap somewhere along the way. It was then that I noticed a small white crossover van parked inconspicuously behind a large bush on the side of the road. It was an APD mobile speed monitoring van complete with camera and radar gun.

I could not help but feel that the universe was conspiring to help me through the expense and trouble of getting a speeding ticket. I thanked the cosmos for my good fortune and my ability to decode all these signs. I guess I should slow down just a little bit huh?

8/01/2008 - First Yoga

I finally had a chance to go Yoga. It was interesting, painful, relaxing and generally not a bad experience. I felt great afterword. The bad thing about it was each time I would switch from Cobra to Downward Dog, my head ache, now four months gone, would come back with a vengeance.

I think it was due to my head facing down. I am going to either look forward on any following Downward Dogs or just do Child's Pose (Really easy!!)

7/31/2008 - Heart of the Lion - G14

GONG #14

I went to lunch with Leo today. We had an excellent discussion about a movie he recently saw; DALAI LAMA RENAISSANCE directed by Khashyar Darvich. This movie documents the happenings of a conference with the Dalai Lama and forty of the worlds top thinkers as they attempt to solve the problems of the world.

Leo was disappointed because all of these individuals came together and instead of identifying and planning methods to help solve the world's problems, they just built a microcosm of the same problems the rest of the world have: pride, ignorance, negativity and close-mindedness.

We discussed what the problems actually were. Leo listed them previously as hunger, disease, oppression/slavery, ignorance, homelessness and being financially destitute. He had a wonderful idea to help solve the worlds problems and the solution starts with education.

I told Leo about my realization of universal love and the situation that helped bring it about. I explained how I felt the day I told my co-worker that I would go to the ends of the earth for her. When this came to me at that moment it was almost as if my heart knew this feeling was true and it was saying the words for me. We discussed an innerconnection to the Universe/Creator/God which may explain that feeling.

At the end of the meal we received fortune cookies. Leo's read something like "You will meet new friends soon."

We were both astounded to read my fortune:

"Your heart will always make itself known through your words"

GONG!

7/27/2008 - To the End of the Earth

OK, this is weird:

My wife, son, mother and I were all out for lunch today. When we asked the waiter something about getting a refill on a drink he replied "Yes I will, anything you would like, I would walk to the end of the earth for you!"

My wife and I just looked at each other amazed.

7/26/2008 - Throwing Popcorn

My wife and I had an opportunity to finally see the new Batman film, which is fairly great. During the film someone near the front of the theater was exclaiming remarks. It sounded like a high school kid and my wife and I made some comments to each other about the interruptions. I was not distracted, nor did it bother me terribly, but I still got strange thoughts of throwing food or drinks and maybe shouting out to "BE QUIET!" I was a little confused about this as I had not really been bothered and of course did not do anything of the sort.

Once the movie was over we walked in front of the girl making the noise. "There is the noisy girl." I pointed out to my wife as we turned the corner. It turned out to be a down-syndrome teenager who was really excited about being in the theater.

In retrospect, I do not know why I had thoughts of throwing or shouting, but I have a theory: maybe I was in some way "feeling" peoples' reactions in the audience and "picking up" from them their fantasies about what they wanted to do about the situation.

The lesson I took from this experience is that jumping to conclusions and judging someone before you have all the facts is the improper reaction to most situations. There may be a reason why behavior is less than optimum and assuming someone is being malicious may be incorrect. In the future when someone is misbehaving I am not going to assume that they are a "bad" person. There is most likely a reason why and they should not be judged too quickly based on their behavior. They may even need help or guidance which one should be more than willing to give.

7/23/2008 - Unconditional Love

I have noticed lately that I have been "nicer" than usual. The other day at Costco I helped two people load heavy items into their carts. I have been opening more doors for people, cutting less people off while driving and even seem generally more friendly to everyone I meet.

The other day I was walking with a group of co-workers. One of them turned to me and said "Would you mind doing me a favor?"

I replied "Yes anything;" I told her jokingly "I would walk to the end of the earth for you lady!"

Her response was "Yeah right!"

At that moment I realized that I meant it and expanded "No really, I would. In fact I would walk to the end of the earth for anybody."

I was not really sure why this came out the way it did and what it truly meant, but I went on with my day and did not think much about it.

I was reading something today that I found a very interesting:

"Only the outer ego, the individuality, seeks to 1) coerce; 2) judge; 3) flatter; and/or 4) threaten or frighten the outer self or selves of others. On the other hand, the Inner Self, the Master Within, offers unconditional love...We know that our outer ego-self is but an instrument for unconditional love. This unconditional love is tempered with a universal wisdom that is tolerant—being a harmonium which is balanced and equitable for all concerned."

I know that this sounds like a statement that the Dali Llama might say or something the relative that calls you brother no mater how you are related and insists on enthusiastic grace at absolutely every meal (even when dining out) would say, or what my wife called "hippy-dippy," but when I read this and compared it to my personal journey to enlightenment it really hit home. It reminds me of lessons one might be taught out of the bible (like love they neighbor/enemy).

I feel that love/respect/acceptance for everyone regardless of their appearance, background, nationality or attitude is something that if we all strive to do, could change the entire Universe. The only caveat to this theory is that in order to love unconditionally, one must love one's self unconditionally. This means getting over all the preprogrammed self esteem sucking dispositions you have developed throught your life and realizing that you are worthy of absolute self-respect.

Directly after writing this entry I came across this quote from Nelson Mandela in The Power of Flow:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

7/18/2008 - Goodbye Uncle

My uncle passed last night at about 6pm.

I was driving to his house this morning to say goodbye before they picked him up to bring him to the funeral home for cremation. On the drive I heard a song I never really listened to the lyrics before (I always thought it was called Run Away.) Here are the lyrics which I thought were very interesting and pertinent...recognize it?:

I have spent a lifetime
Waiting for the chance
To save you my confession
Save the one last dance

The same old superstition
Haunt us now and then
I'm begging for ignition
To start it all again

We'll burn away
Burn away, burn away my pride
We'll burn away
Burn away, burn away my pride

We'll burn away from all the other flames that burn tonight
We'll burn away
Burn away, burn away my pride

Breathe for me from now on
Breathe for me when I'm gone
Burn out beyond
Out beyond the sun

Will you still remember
There behind the skies
Walking on the embers
Standing in their light
The hardest part is knowing
Everything must die
The hardest part is waiting here
Waiting to collide

We'll burn away
Burn away, burn away my pride
We'll burn away
Burn away, burn away my pride

We'll burn away from all the other flames that burn tonight
We'll burn away
Burn away, burn away my pride
Breathe for me from now on
Breathe for me when I'm gone
Burn out beyond
Out beyond the sun

Burn on, burn on
Calling to you
Burn on, burn on
Calling to you
Burn on, burn on...

I'll never burn again
Never burn again (x3)
We'll never burn again
Never burn again (x3)

7/17/2008 - Think+ Review

I thought it would be a good post to review the method of how I came up with Think+.

Years ago I learned a technique used when building Sigils, but it also is used in logo design for markting and advertizing. I have used it to help find things that I have lost, bring about change and even to represent me symbolically.

It bascially entails writing out a sentance or set of words describing what you want the symbol to represent, bringing them down to a common denominator (single letters) and then arranging them in different ways until you are happy with the symbol.

I used that technique to build the Think+ symbol. In each pic you can see each letter and the plus sign outlined in red:

7/09/2008 - Interesting Realization

I remembered something today when I ran into a co-worker that I had not seen since I had been back.

Back in post 4/28/2008 - Awake Song, I mentioned the group of numbers I found while pondering the Golden Number. I took these numbers and stopped by a gas station to fill out a lottery scan tron and they did not have a station with a pencil to fill it out. I took a scan tron and decided, for some unknown reason, that I should leave and go to another one.

I stopped at the next gas station down the street and asked for a pencil from the cashier. While I was filling out the sheet the co-worker I ran into today tapped me on the shoulder and said hi. We talked about management changes and how things were going in life and he mentioned that I should come back to the old job someday. I thought nothing of it at the time, but realized now when I saw him that this may have been what the numbers were all about in the first place, to meet with him and start the ball rolling on starting back at this old job.

Ain't life grand?

7/05/2008 - Yoga TJ's

My wife, son and I were getting groceries at TJ's when we ran right into the woman from the other day. I introduced her to my family and we discussed Yoga. My wife has been trying to get me to try Yoga for years as I am just about the least stretchy person on the planet. I asked my wife to buy me a mat while she was out shopping. We plan on going this Friday. I hope I don't snap any tendons!

7/02/2008 - Bike Ride Disaster

I decided, in an unanticipated whim, to ride my bike to the bus stop this morning. As I was flying down a steep hill near my house, I started turning with the left-hand curve of the road. I did not notice until it was too late that the road was covered with a fine coating of dirt and gravel. I could not lean into the turn enough to turn and had to move in toward the curb. I slowed down and tried to run out of the crash and was not able to and rolled and flipped. It was fun and I was not hurt, but did put my hand down and collected about 30+ goat heads in it.

At lunch I was driven over to a pizza place to meet folks from my old job. A man I used to work with, Terry, told me that he has had a headache for about six weeks. My headache has been gone for nine. I am hoping that I did not transfer this headache to him. I told him all the knowledge I could about having chronic headaches and suggested some treatments and doctors.

That night my wife and I were eating dinner at a Chinese restaurant. She handed me my fortune cookie and it read: "Be weary today, you should only be a passenger, do not try and drive anywhere."

My thought was "too little to late!"

I did take the bus to work, was driven to and from lunch by a co-worker, had my wife pick me up after work and after getting the fortune I also had my wife drive home...just in case.

7/01/2008 - Lunch with the King - G13

GONG #13

Out of nowhere I decided that I should give Mr King a call. He was on his way over to a local Chai house so I decided to go meet him.

I met a nice lady who he told me was suffering from severe arthritis and practiced pikram yoga. I noticed her before he introduced me because she sat down on table next to us and was reading "The Pillarts of the Earth" by Ken Follett. I just finished this book a few weeks ago.

We were enjoying lunch and I was listening to his perspective on his roots (Pacific Islander/East Indian) when I looked above the register. GONG! Perched above the registered was a white board. Drawn on the white board was a symbol all too familiar to me that I immediately gasped and ask Mr King, "What does that mean?"

He stated that this was a Northern Indian Astrological chart. I looked closer and the chart (which almost exactly resembled my Think+ symbol) has a list of planets including the sun and moon on the right side with corresponding dates. The symbol for the sun was a circle with a dot in it. This is the exact symbol I have come to draw in different areas of my symbols.

The chart is a map of where the planets are for this time. The sun in this chart was in the center upper quadrant. This, reflected in the first iteration of the Think+ symbol, is where I placed the dot (the north diamond.) I was amazed and needed to know more.

On the way back to the office I called Leo and asked him if he knew what this chart was. At first he did not, but finally put it together with my description. "This is the Vedic Chart and I believe it has origins in ancient Hindu culture."

Here is an example of one the latest version of the Think+ symbol (Keep in mind I drew this over a week before I went to lunch with Mr. King):















This is an example of what was on the board:



















One interesting parralel I realized at this lunch is that I saw the Eye of Horus on the sign at Canteras Del Rey a few days ago. The word Canteras in spanish means either a certain type of volcanic rock sculptures (which I think is the definition on the sign,) quarry or players (as in performance arts.) Rey means King in spanish. I find it curious that I met Mr. King at a presentation where part of the discussion was revolving around quarries.

Facinating no?

6/29/2008 - Pyramids and the King

I entered the book store where the lecture of the Ancient Pyramids was held and there at the register was a friend that I have not seen in many years. Mr. King once jammed with my old band and I had several classes with him in high school.

The lecture was interesting, but the most amazing part was when I found out that the Egyptians actually casted their own stones for a big part of the construction of many of the pyramids. The casting was done with rubble, limestone dust and a binding agent (some sort of poison, but I don't remember the name.) They actually used wood forms, completed the casting and flipped over the mold. This has been proven from a polymer institute as fact, not conjecture!

After the lecture, I caught up with Mr. King on all that he has been up to in the 14 years since I last saw him. He is dabling in mystical subjects and is still into music, but from more of a spiritual conscience angle.

We exchanged numbers.

6/27/2008 - Eye of Horus

My wife, son and I were driving back from dinner one night when I saw a sign out front of a local business. It had an Eye of Horus on it which caught my attention. The business name was Canteras Del Rey.

6/26/2008 - Islands in the Stream

I was on the bus this morning reading Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert and I found an interesting statements that I found curious. The author was having a conversation when meditating with her mind, which was trying to distract her from the meditation:

"Mind:...So let's imaging that you're an island in...a river!

Me: Oh, you mean like Bannerman Island, in the Hudson River?

Mind: Yes! Exactly! Perfect. Therefore, in conclusion, let's meditate on this image--envision that you are an island in a river. All the thoughts that float by as you're meditating, these are just the river's natural currents and you can ignore them because you are an island.

Me: Wait, I thought you said I was a temple.

Mind: That's right, sorry. You're a temple on an island. In fact, you are both the temple and the island."

The reason why this hit me as important is that for years (18+) I have been meditating using visualization. During these visualizations, I "built" a "temple" or sorts to visit to help with meditations. It is a nice cave type area with torches on the walls a stone seat facing a large underground lake (similar to the description of Voldemort's hiding place of one of his Horcruxes). When visualizing going to this temple, I am standing at a bank of a river facing an island, a stone bridge appears and I am able to walk onto the island and descend the stairs into my temple.

You can see how the conversation with herself about a temple on an island in a river took me by surprise.

Later that day while coming back home, I read this which seemed to profound that I had to read it three times and sat staring off at the mountains in contemplation:

"'This is what everyone has come here for.' According to the mystics, this search for divine bliss is the entire purpose of a human life. This is why we all chose to be born, and this is why all the suffering and pain of life on earth is worthwhile--just for the chance to experience this infinite love. And once you have found this divinity within, can you hold it? Because if you can...bliss."

6/25/2007 - Cool Phone

It has been pretty quiet on the Tao front.

My wife picked up a new phone for me today, the number contains the number 1, three 4's and three 5's. If you take out the 1 (me), it is 444 and 555. 444=12 and 555=15. 12+15=27. 27 deduces to 9 then 3.

FUN WITH NUMBERS 123!

Regardless, I really like the phone number.

6/12/2008 - Never Get to Acoma

We have friends in town this week. We all decide that we will go to the Pueblo of Acoma, a really cool Native pueblo on top of a skinny and tall mesa:

http://sccc.acomaskycity.org/overview

We set off, and get gas and realize that we left a backpack carrier for my son, so we returned to the house. We finally got on the highway and were immediately met by a huge traffic jam.

I turn around on the highway and backtrack to the previous exit. We travel on the frontage road and it quickly turns into a dirt road. We pass a couple laughing going back the way we were going. We found out why when the road ended in the Rio Puerco, which is a dry river bed. We decided to descend into the river to see if we could get to the next exit, which was only about a half mile further.

We almost flipped my 4runner, got stuck in mud that had a two inch crust on top of it and went up a promising road that ended in a dead end. Thankfully we realized that we should turn back and get out of the river bed. We did find a cross through that went to the other frontage road and were finally on our way to Acoma.

Once on the highway again, I started hearing rattling. I found out quickly that the wind deflector on top of the moon roof was loose and was about to fly off. At that moment my son asked to stop and go potty. We were starting to realize that something was not wanting us to go to Acoma today.

Once we stopped and adjusted the wind deflector and drained our son's tank, I told everyone that we could not ignore the signs and we must go back. We flipped a coin just to be sure and it came up tails...time to high tail it back to Albuquerque. We went through Los Lunas and ate at Blakes before going to the Rattlesnake museum (which was small, but pretty cool.)

http://www.rattlesnakes.com/

What an adventurous day!

6/06/2008 - Japanese Kitchen

I was sitting eating with my wife and friend and looked on the table and found a similar symbol as this:















The only difference was it was in a black circle and it was below a set of chopsticks. Very similar to the Think+ symbol.

http://www.japanesekitchen.com/steakhouse/index1.htm

6/05/2008 - Unlucky Clover?

I thought it was amusing that the next day after putting my "lucky" clover into my wallet, I left my wallet at home when I went to my last day at work. I took out a couple of my friends from work telling them I would pay and then after the check arrived, ended up not having my wallet. It sounded like I totally set them up...it made me kinda chuckle. Maybe the clover is unlucky because it has a bite out of one of the leaves when I found it?

6/04/2008 - Lucky Clover

Has anyone ever found a four leaf clover? I have tried my entire life to find one and never actually have succeeded.

Today I was walking in the grass while waiting for my wife and son to meet me for lunch. I found a small plum tree and decided that it looked like a nice place to sit down until they arrive. I noticed that there were many clovers on the grass in this area. I felt like I would be able to find one for some strange reason so I looked down in front of my knees. Within just a few seconds I spied one. All of these plants were three leaved and I traced this single four leafed clover to a plant that had all three leaves. I pulled the plant and showed it to my wife. I pulled it out and put it in my wallet and went out and bought a lottery ticket.

6/02/2008 - Welcome

I walk up to the mailbox today and knew even before I opened unlocked it that the Order's membership packet was there. I had received a letter last week stating that in a couple of weeks it would arrive. There was no reason why I would expect it only a couple of days later. In the packet was a second copy of the two pamphlets I have been using for weeks now in my meditations. I have that part down!

5/31/2008 - Pyramid Gong

So out of the blue I get an email from the friend I stayed with in California telling me that she saw this and instantly thought of me. I am amazed at what I see. Not only is it a meditation timer (of which I have been doing a lot of lately), but it is in the shape of the Pyramid that I have been drawing and seeking in books and studies...but it also makes a gong sound when it chimes to end the session!

http://www.sagemeditation.com/cms/component/page,shop.product_details/flypage,shop.flypage/product_id,30/category_id,10/manufacturer_id,0/option,com_virtuemart/Itemid,2/

5/26/2008 - Tao Quotes - G12

GONG #12

My wife, son and I go to the mall to buy her a new iPod as we are not as concerned as we were about money now that I have a solid job offer. My son and I went into the book store to potty. On the way out I saw three books that I have or am soon to read: Pillars of the Earth...Eat, Pray, Love...and The Secret. This struck me as odd, but I walked past them and out of the store. After contemplating it, I went back in and tried to figure out why these three significant to me books were right together on the end cap. They are the upper left corner of the shelf and none of the other books seemed important. I noticed that they looked like an arrow pointing up and to the left. Where could they be pointing? I finally noticed that there was a section of Ann Rice in the row behind that it seemed to be pointing to and was astonished when I saw the title, “Christ the Lord, Out of Egypt.” I bought it and intend to put it in my reading queue right behind Eat, Love, Pray.

That night I finished the Tao book and OMG! They quoted Castaneda, one of my favorites. They talked about a talk that Carlos and Don Juan had about PATHS Don Juan said:

"Anything is one of a million paths. Therefore you must always keep in mind that a path is only a path: if you feel you should not follow it, you must not stay with it under any conditions. To have such clarity you must lead a disciplined life. Only then will you know that any path is only a path, and there is no affront, to oneself or to others, in dropping it if that is what you heart tells you to do. But your decision to keep on the path or leave it must be free of fear or ambition...look at every path closely and deliberately. Try it as many times as you think necessary."

He goes on to say

"Does the path have heart? If it does, the path is good; if it doesn't it is of no use. Both paths lead nowhere; but one has heart, the other doesn't. One makes for a joyful journey; as long as you follow it, you are one with it. The other will make you curse your life. One makes you strong; the other weakens you."

What I got out of this from my perspective is that I have been so concerned about being shown the path and what direction am I going and how am I going to get there and where there is? I realized that it is not the end result, not which choice to make to start on the path; it is how one travels on the path. It does not matter if I chose a job in CO, or at the investment firm or the other jobs, it matters how I act and how my heart feels about the journey. If you have a positive attitude (THINK+) your journey and end result will be successful and prosperous! I discussed this with my wife before I completely finished the book.

The book shortly after that part quotes the bible trying to associate the Kingdom of God with synchronicity and that it will "provide for material needs if one seeks the Kingdom of God."

The quote form the bible is this:

"Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arranged like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you. O man of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'what shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'...your heavenly Father knows you need them all. But seek first his Kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well."

-Matthew 6:26-30

THE EXACT PASSAGE FROM CHURCH YESTERDAY! GONG!!!!!

5/25/2008 - Church Quote

At church today they were talking a reading from Matthew 6:26-30 and the sermon was how we should not want for anything material because God will always provide. Something about two masters. It did not seem important to me, but it discussed clothing and vanity. It made me feel like I was too self conscious when swimming and never take off my shirt cause I am a bear. I decide the next time I swim I will take off my shirt for once!

5/24/2008 - The Order and Cash

Since our resent insecure career future, I told myself that this is not the right time to look at paying the dues for the Order. I have been putting money aside as it becomes available which will be slighted when the time is correct. I have $40 saved up till now. We went around today running errands and returning a couple of things. I took $40 out at one store from our account. We returned a couple of different gardening things. When we got back, I thought it seemed time with the new job to look at enrolling. I counted up all the money that I had saved and everything in my wallet and it was $112, $6 more than the dues. I requested acceptance that day.

5/23/2008 - Job Offer and Give Notice - G11

GONG #11

I got an official job offer and put in my two week notice. If I do not get an offer form my old job, I will start this new job on the 9th....June 9th, the 4 week mark! GONG!

Found interesting quote at beginning of the book:

"For once color is music. Whether one takes Rothko's color as a melodic sequence or a simultaneous chord, it is often rich beyond expectation and like music, somewhat inexplicable...somewhere here is a doorway to another world."

-Roger Lipsey The Spiritual in 20th Century Art

Meditation asking for knowledge of the correct path to take, which job, which way?

5/22/2008 - Another Interview

I got a second call from the recruiter that set me up with the investment firm telling me about another interesting opportunity. He stated that the investment firm was interested in a second interview but they were concerned that I would not be challenged and that they could not pay me enough money. The second interview went better than the other two. I basically hit a home run!

After the interview, my wife called saying that the ISYS guy wanted to speak with me badly. He basically wanted to move forward with trying to get me up to Greeley. We discussed our options and I told him to call me tomorrow. Just as I got off the phone the local recruiter called and told me that the new job was a go and they wanted to make me an offer with exceptional salary. I verbally accepted.

After these two calls I stared down at my phone amazed at how much good luck I was having. I thought for some reason that there was another call going to come though and then my cell rang again. I was my old job offering verbally a job. My friend told me that I should take the job contract job and then I should get an offer before I start and I can tell them never mind.

I was thinking that this whole this was coming at me so fast and from all angles and this was not a clear path to the right place, but a bunch of really good opportunities. How was I to tell which was best?

Confused but excited, my son and I go to his first baseball game. That was a blast!

Got the first of two books on Tao: The Tao of Psychology by Jean Shinoda Bolen and intent to read it all this long weekend.

I have not had a chance for a meditation all week

5/20/2008 - Everybody Wants Me - G10

GONG #10

I got two calls from recruiters today. Once from the ISYS guy from Colorado (I called him back yet again last week). I got two interviews that "popped" up today one was with a local investment firm and the other back at my old job. Both went incredibly well. I seemed to be one step ahead of the first guy and knew I answered every question as we expected. He seemed very interested. The old job interview went even better. They basically told me that they were excited that I was coming back and that an offer would be extended soon.

The interview went so well that I was late for a doctor appointment scheduled at 4. I thought twice about it because he is a stickler and states that any missed appointments would be paid in full at $160/hour. I called the doctor at 4:05 leaving a message for him that I would arrive as soon as I could. I made it to his office in 20 minutes, at least a 30 to 45 minute drive. The interesting thing is that I knew I would make it there in plenty of time and was not worried about it in the least. Lights seemed lined up, freeway open. This is a 15+ mile drive across and through town.

Once I get there, the place seemed empty. He, also a chronic pain sufferer, works out of his house. I called through the house and no one answered. Disappointed, I started writing a note when he walks out from the hallway.

"How long have you been here?" he asks. I told him that I had just got there. "Oh good, my previous patient canceled and I fell asleep."

He had not even got my message and did not even know I was concerned about having a canceled appointment.

I went over everything that has been going on today and he seemed pleased. We reviewed an ADHD test I took a few weeks ago and found that I am in the 99th percentile to having an attention problem and am most definitely ADHD without Hyperactivity....Can anyone say CLARITY!

The entire day of job prospects including the ADD clarity after the ritual last night deserves a GONG!

5/19/2008 - Success Ritual #2

I repeated the Career Success and Life Clarity ritual with one significant change: I invited, which I have not specifically before, The Universe/The Cosmic/The Creator/Amen Ra/God. I performed a Peace medication as well as concencrated our new veggie garden.

5/18/2008 - Egyptian Pharaohs

Attended a seminar held by Leo about enchant pharaohs. Learned a few things:

Egyptians had harnessed the power of electricity.

They actually have found clay pots filled with heavy metals which help electric charges to be used for?.....

We are currently in the switch over time between the astrological age of Pisces and Aquarius which Leo called ages of religion and liberty respectively.

Mustafa (soon to be guest of Leo and offering a lecture on his theories) has a theory that Akhenaton (aka Thutmosis III) and other Pharaohs were actually biblical icons, Kings David and Solomon, Moses and even Jesus.

An interesting thing happened after the seminar when an outspoken attendee railed Leo something about negativity and threats and was walked out. I walked out with them in case there was a physical altercation, but it seemed to resolve well.

Even more interesting was the Khufu/Think+ resemblance which I could not understand what the dot meant. After talking to Leo, he stated that the pyramids used to be polished and reflective and that the dot should be in the east quadrant. Maybe the dot represents the sun….HHMMMMM?

I sent him the below email that night:

Thank you for the lecture this afternoon. I really found it intriguing. I cannot help thinking that the symbol I found is definitely pointing into the sun's reflection off the surface but to what end, I am not sure. I know that the pyramids are higher than the tropic of cancer so direct reflection reaching the apex would not never happen, but the symbol puts the dot halfway up one of the edges. Something is happening there I know it. This is so very exciting!!

Maybe I will know more for next month's meeting. My wife is intrigued by the material and I think she would like to join us for the pyramid lecture.

Oh and by the way, I released several hundred lady bugs on my rose plants this evening. It was a really cool experience and oddly centering. Nothing like a cloud of rose savers circling your head.

Check out this interesting article too:

http://www.alisonmoroney.com/egypt/frameset_horizon.html

5/16/2008 - Think+ Day 4

In trying to figure out the meaning, I modified and flipped the symbol. Tried to decode, but could not figure out anything new about it until I found the below picture of Khufu which I discussed with Ricky after he mentioned 3d modeling which brought me to what the symbol might look like in 3 dimensions.

5/15/2008 - Think+ Day 3/Neurologist/Numerology - G9

GONG #9

So I was sitting in the neurologist office looking at an anatomical chart about the brain, 1st pic attached, and I looked at the bottom corner and thought to myself, “that looks familiar”. If you take it and flip it over, it looks very similar to the symbol from a few days ago. GONG!


















My friend sent me an email about numerology and I found it very interesting. My son and I are both born on the 22nd, which apparently is not condensed in numerology. It represents the “Master Builder” defined as someone who has latent power, nervous tension, spiritual understanding of the material world and high ideals. I am reading a book, Pillars of the Earth, and Master Builder is referenced thorought. I thought this was kind of cool.

I came up with a couple of unknowns when reviewing my numerology reading:

1. Do you include a Y as a vowel when calculating the Soul Urge?
2. Is a Birthday of 22 a 22 or it is a 4 when using it in other calculations?
3. Is the personal year the current cycle based on the chart below, or is it the beginning of a new cycle, how do you know what cycle you are in?





If anyone knows the answeres, please let me know. I also made a really cool spreadsheet to determine your numerology reading. Please email me if you would like a copy.

Meditation (asking for clarity or bring it all together, thanks for healing, uplift me to be a better spiritual, healing individual) Repeat of yesterday

5/14/2008 - Think+ Day 2

I took my sketch and built the image:

I asked Leo his opinion in email and he said this:

I get focus (dot/me) and chaos/movement as I watch. LOL.

I thought it looked like a recent method of encryption that I was recently looking into when trying to decode the Fibonacci numbers.

Meditation asking for clarity to bring it all together, thanks for healing and uplift me to be a better spiritual/healing individual.

5/13/2008 - Think +

This morning while driving past the office I noticed three "homeless" men walking through the front parking lot. I thought for some reason that I should watch them in case they break into someone's car (derogatory assumption, I know). I turned around and watched them walk casually through without stopping. That was silly I told my self and drove back to the back parking lot. I noticed one of the men strayed away from the group toward my car after I parked it next to the trashcan. When I opened the door, the man was standing there and he said something like "I was going to help you throw out your trash because I thought that was why you were parking here. I was going to help for some cash so he could get something to eat." I told him I was not throwing anything out, but I had a banana with me so I handed it to him. He asked again for some money and I told him I only have pennies (lucky pennies that I always keep in my pocket...Cooper gets all my silver). I gave him a few of my lucky pennies and he says something in another language and then Thank You (something like "Te ke ala"). The whole situation interested me and I was compelled to take the guy over to McD's for breakfast, but I did not.

I looked all over for something in another language online (possibly Navajo) that matched it and I could not, but I did find an interesting web page of a Hawaiian teacher who holds a personal development class called Ho'opono pono ke ala. It seems to match closely with the Order’s theories. I feel that since I was made in Hawaii, it may be pertinent to me and plan at some point to send her a letter or email.

During a meeting, later in the day, I was brainstorming on combining Think+ into a symbol.

I also had a meditation asking The Universe for clarity to bring it all together, employment success, thanks for healing, uplift me to be a better spiritual and healing individual in the best interest of me, my family, humanity and the universe itself. Specifically, when will our life be stable again.

That evening when getting the mail, two peices had exactly the same statement on them "4 Weeks." This feels like an answer so I take note of the date, June 9th.

http://alohaspiritaunty.com/teachings.htm

5/10/2008 - A Brush with Death - G8

GONG #8

Picture this:

My son and I are driving during a nice, but windy, Saturday morning. I have the windows down and am smiling and contemplating my life to this date.

I think of reading The Alchemist and its similarity to a theme in Carlos Castaneda’s books where death plays a key role:

Don Juan tells Carlos about when he first met his teacher. He had spent many years as a slave worker on a farm in Mexico . His master got so angry with him one day that he shot him and left him for dead on the road. Don’s teacher came to his aid and nursed him back to health. Don Juan became an apprentice to him and the teacher sent him back to the farm telling him that he can learn his best sorcerers’ lessons under persecution and threat of death. This is when a sorcerer thrives. It is almost as if impending death brings about clarity and rebirth.

I was thinking about this lesson on death and the sheep herder’s similar situation where he was going to be killed if he could not turn into the wind. I was picturing the conversations he was having with the desert, wind and sun and how the wind kicked up to high speeds at the thought of him discussing his situation with the hand that wrote it all. While thinking about how brushes with death can change a person and cause almost a rebirth, a gust of wind pushes into the car and brings along with it dust. It picks up a piece of trash that I mistaken for something I did not want to lose. I grabbed twice for the trash and then looked back at the road. I was heading straight for the curb.

I turned the wheel and went into a flat spin and spun across the lanes sliding between a small gap in the median. I was screeching into on coming traffic and stopped a few feet from the curb on the other side. Miraculously, my son and I were fine. The car was no worse for ware and I felt like this was an embodiment of what I was just thinking about. GONG!

5/09/2008 - The Alchemist

I finished the book late this night. The interesting thing was that it had a section of the book where the sheep herder read the fight of two hawks in the desert and divined that an attack was coming to the oasis. The book discussed Ornithomancy which I mentioned yesterday!

I sat down and took note of quotes that stood out to me particularly the last one.

Said to a Goddess by the lake: "I weep for Narcissus, but I never noticed that Narcissus was beautiful. I weep because each time he knelt beside my banks, I could see, in the debts of his eyes, my own beauty reflected."

"They boy reached through to the Soul of the World, and he saw that it was part of the soul of God. And he saw that the soul of God was his own soul. And that he himself could perform miracles."

"Everything that happens once can never happen again. But everything that happens twice will surely happen a third time."

"Everything has been written by the same hand."

"When a person really desires something, all the universe conspires to help that person realize his...Personal Legend."

“’but what if I can’t (turn myself into the wind)?’

‘Then you’ll die in the midst of trying to realize your Personal Legend. That’s a lot better than dying like millions of other people, who never even know what their Personal Legends were.'

’But don’t worry,’ the alchemist continued. ‘Usually the threat of death makes people a lot more aware of their lives.’”

5/08/2008 - Dead Dove

My wife and son were out of town last night. When I went outside to grab the paper, a dead dove was on the front lawn. I did not think anything of it at first, but at the end of the day when I came home from work, there was blood all over the porch. I was intrigued and spent the rest of the day researching the meaning of dead doves on porches and could not find anything. I did however find out that the encient greeks studied birds and divined using Ornithomancy. An interesting thought but still no information on the dove.

5/07/2008 - Auntie - G7

GONG #7

Late in the evening, the friend we stayed with in CA calls and immediately asks a weird question; “Tell me honestly, is your head ache better in the past two days than it has been in a long time?” This takes me by surprise, so I ask why.

She said that she just got off the phone with the Craniosacral therapist and she asked how I was doing. She told her that she had not spoken to me in a while. The thrapist said that she was not really worried about me because she has been reaching out from CA and checking in on me trying to heal me from afar. She said that she had the distict impression that I was better than I had been in a long time over the past two days. GONG!!!!

I spent a good hour talking to her about what all has been going on in my life and the GONG’s ringing left and right. She said that she was sending me a book and that I needed to read it. It is called “The Alchemist” and she felt I would find it interesting. She also suggested I get “The Power of Flow” and “The Tao of Psychology.” I eagerly await the books.

5/06/2008 - Wife Psychic? - HA GONE!

During a meeting this morning, I wrote down "Think +." on my notepad. I wrote it as a note to a friend about how she should think positively to help her get out of the rut she is in.
I have for the past three days been thinking positively. I have been telling my body that it does not need the pain and that my headache is cured, gone forever. Well, this morning I woke up and it really was gone forever! This is the happiest day I have had in a long time. It is gone, and I am so glad!

My wife, son and I went to get ice cream to celebrate at Stone Cold (Steve Austin) Creamary (hehehe) next to a toy store. After the ice cream, my wife wanted to return something to the toy store. My son and I went to the car to wait for her. When we got in to the car, he said “We don’t have a ball?” I asked what he meant and he said “we have this toy, but we don’t have any balls in the car.”

I told him that I knew we did not and maybe Mommy would get him one in the toy store. I thought that I should call her and ask, but her cell phone was in the car with us. I attempted to “ask” her through thought. We waited in the car and she came out and immediately said “Look what I brought you buddy!" and pulled out a green rubber ball from the bag she brought with her.

She said that she saw them there and thought that he would like one.

5/05/2008 - Success Ritual #1

I wrote and performed a ritual thinking that this is the full moon. It focuses on a positive change in my career and life asking for clarity and success in this uncertain time. I also did a Tarot reading and got the following:

********The Star******** Hierophant
*********************** 8W
PageP, 2W, 7W, 3P, KnightS
*********************** 8P
********Empress******** 3W

This is screaming at me that change is coming.

I come to realize after I was wondering where the moon was that it was actually the new moon. Not sure why this is, but I took it that this was the beginning ritual to be repeated at the full moon. Things that you want to come to you should be introduced on the new moon and built up and completed on the full moon.

5/04/2008 - Hebrew Guitar

I came early to church this morning to sit in on "Children's Church." The wife of the priest was soon going to go to summer camp for several months and they are looking for musicians to help out. When she came out, I was interested because her guitar had Hebrew letters on it. I was not sure what they were, but she said they meant "Worship." I did not really think it too synchronisitous at the time, just interesting until the actual service a few minutes later.

The priest came to the from of the altar and started discussing Fraternal Orders and introduced all members of the congregation who were members of The Daughters of the King. Two women walked over and he continued to read scripts that they all would act out in order to reestablish their membership in this order. I too found this interesting as I am investigating a similar Order to see if I would try and become a member. Then the interesting part came, the wife of the priest came late and stood up next to the other two women. This was definitely an interesting synchronicity as she also had Hebrew letters on her guitar. The letters were three in number and one of any combination of SHIN, HEY, CHET or TAV. SHIN definitely was the first letter (right most) and it did have a tilde mark on the right making it a SH sound instead of S. The first and second letters had vowel sounds beneath them. I later remembered that HEY was associated with the 15 in the tree of life.

5/02/2008 - The Secret

I watch the secret; it was all inspiring and interesting. What really struck me as amazing was the story of the miracle man. He was in a place crash and was paralyzed completely. His diaphragm was destroyed, he was on a respirator and he could not even talk, all he could do was blink. He blinked out to his nurse “I will walk out of this hospital by Christmas.”

One month later, he was brought off of the respirator and 5 months later walked out on Christmas day. All he did was picture himself walking and breathing and healed himself. I decide to take a positive attitude about everything I can, be happy. I also decided to cure my headache because if he could fix his damaged tissue, I could fix my headache. I started thinking that I no longer had a headache, that I do not need it anymore that it was gone.

http://www.themiracleman.org/index2.htm

5/01/2008 - Ratatouille - G6

GONG #6

Talked to Leo and he wished me happy Beltane and asked if we were going to the ritual in the mountains. We were not, but I wished him a merry time.

While watching Ratatouille, the following scene struck me as synchronicity GONG:

GUSTEAU (ON T.V.)

Good food is like music you can taste, color you can smell. There is excellence all around you. You need only be aware to stop and savor it.

Remy notices a leftover plate of FRUITS & CHEESES. He picks up a small slice of cheese and takes a bite.

REMY (V.O.)

Gusteau was right. Each flavor was totally unique.

As Remy closes his eyes his surroundings FADE TO BLACK. An amorphous COLORED SHAPE appears above his head accompanied by a cello bass line.

REMY (V.O., CONT’)

Oh, yeah. Amazing. But... combine one flavor with another--
Cheese still in his mouth, Remy takes a bite of the STRAWBERRY.

REMY (CONT’D) -and something new was created.

New COLORED SHAPES and musical signatures appear; swirling and dancing in harmony with the others.

Emailed the info to Leo for his opinion:

My wife and I were watching Ratatouille (Disney/pixar and we all know about their supposed roots) and the main character was told not to focus on the negative to “see” (I love the Castaneda-esque term so much!) what it was in life he wanted. Just before this a chef on TV in the movie said something like “Food is like music you can taste…colors you can smell”, and after this he eats a piece of food while closing his eyes and “see”s colors swirling with cool blues, greens and yellows based on the stimuli of the different foods. The only cognitive sense remaining from our discussion and experience is tactile. Taking this one step at a time is definitely the way to go for adding taste, smell or touch would be overbearing and counter productive. I think it strange that this topic is expanding before my eyes. I just feel like I can’t “see” for the trees and that something deeper is missing from the equation.